Slow Down

I think reality is finally starting to set in. 

I'm not used to "sitting" all day, not that I am. But...Coming from working 40 hours and commuting an extra 10 hours every week, and working in a high stress job where sometimes people die all day long- or that's what it seemed like...eating out most meals because I was barely home to even sleep, and bought a fancy car that I would drive around and be anywhere I wanted to be whenever I wanted to be. I didn't really even see my roommate half the time because we would literally go to bed and wake up at different and weird hours going from night shift, day shift, day shift, night shift. On my days off, there was usually a SERT Op planned, or a spontaneous rescue of somesort that we would act on.  I don't think I ever thought about the showers water pressure (except for on those occasional Tijuana mission trips, if we got one), and now you have to turn the water heater on 30 minutes before you take a shower, and cross your fingers that the water pressure is decent. Well, now I'm here and it's almost as if life and time froze. I'm in a place where life is so much different. Where I'm not working 40+ hour weeks, and rarely ride in a car... Eating out is kinda a treat, and when we're home we wash every fruit or vegetable by hand- most of the time with bleach. I'm learning how to savor this sweet time- because this season is different. I know jesus has me here for a reason, and I'm enjoying every moment here. I'm looking into different non profits, and am excited to jump in and get busy serving and *hopefully* working. But as for now- whether it's sitting on a porch reading my bible and journaling, listening to monkey noises, and watching birds bigger than my nieces fly by...I'm enjoying it. Sometimes it's hard to slow down, but I'm learning. And it's a good thing. A really good thing. And I encourage you to try it too. 

Love, 

Madeline